There’s a lot on my mind (as per usual), and my thoughts aren’t fully formed enough to write about. This post from almost exactly 10 years ago comes closest. I hope you find something in it that speaks to you.

On Tuesday, I woke up with a pain in my neck. On Wednesday, I went to my network spinal analysis chiropractor to help me with it. After asking me some questions about the pain, what came out of it is I feel like I can’t keep up with my progress. I can’t keep up with myself and all the things I’d like to do.

In the process of coaching me through transformation, she said there is a space between who I am and who I’d like to become. And in that space, I need to breathe in trust and creativity. I don’t need to know how to get where I’d like to go, I just need to trust I’ll get there and remember to be creative.

Boy, was that exactly what I needed to hear. After coming back from Denmark, I’ve felt listless and despondent because of the differences in our countries. People in Denmark are more chill, as far as I can tell. There isn’t as much of a “go, go, go” energy. Coming back to the Bay Area, the land of start-ups and entrepreneurs, I’ve felt overwhelmed by the hustle. I have zero interest right now in making an inspirational meme every day, launching a webinar, or looking for ways to put myself out there more.

There’s often a space between where we are and where we’d like to be. Photo by Max MX on Unsplash

And because I’ve had no motivation to advance my career, particularly after seeing how the Danes are happy without the intense hustle and bustle, I’ve started to wonder whether it’s OK for me to be where I am. To accept my life as it is, doing the things I’m doing. Can I be content with what I have?

My chiropractor reminded me it’s important to hold on to my dreams and, at the same time, to let go of the how. I tend to think there is a prescribed way of doing things. That there are certain steps and someone else knows them. I often fall prey to the idea that this webinar or that book has the magic formula for me to follow to end up where I’d like to be. To become who I wish. But that’s not true.

That point is emphasized in my spiritual tradition. We have a mantra we sing after bathing and the gist is that I am the divine, the divine is working through me, my actions are the divine, and the outcomes of my actions are the divine. In no part am I separate from that which has created everything. In no instance am I on my own.

I don’t have to have all the answers. I don’t have to even know the questions. The important thing for me is to keep trusting, to keep surrendering, and to keep remembering that my higher power is working through me. Yes, there is a gap between where I am and where I’d like to be, but unfortunately, there is no map. And instead, the way I find myself in that new space is to do everything I already mentioned: trust, surrender, and keep moving.

I dream of a world where we understand sometimes there’s a gap between where we are and where we’d like to be. A world where instead of thinking everyone else has the answers, we recognize the answers live inside us. A world where we remember we are never alone or helpless because there is a powerful force working through us. A world where we trust that force is helping us be where we’d like to be.

Another world is not only possible, it’s probable.