There is a concept in yoga that I have struggled with for years. Santosa, or contentment, simultaneously makes perfect sense and yet completely baffles me at the same time. On the one hand contentment seems completely called for. To me it translates into not being greedy, to feeling satisfied with the amount of money, power, [...]
2009
For the past few weeks especially I’ve been going through some serious mental anguish. The reason for my strife is I’ve been at war with myself. I’ve been divided between my head and my heart. My mind and my intuition have been at odds and in that state I experience the worst kind of hell. [...]
I am the type of person who wants to do things BIG. I want to make a big splash, a big difference, a big impact, etc. A few years ago I went to Jamaica because I wanted to do big-time service but when I was there I learned service is the little things too. I’m [...]
“Hope is the thing with feathersThat perches in the soul,And sings the tune–without the words,And never stops at all, And sweetest in the gale is heard;And sore must be the stormThat could abash the little birdThat kept so many warm. I’ve heard it in the chillest land,And on the strangest sea;Yet, never, in extremity,It asked [...]
This morning I had a nightmare the magazine I work for folded. I dreamt I was out of a job and couldn’t pay my rent because I have pretty much zero savings. I woke up with my heart pounding feeling scared and dissatisfied. Dissatisfied not for my own sake but for the way the world [...]
Keeping the faith is hard work.When things don’t work out the way I want them to I start railing against the Universe: “Why are you putting me through this?? I hate you for doing this to me! Why can’t it happen the way I want?!?” etc. I get angry and pissed off and feel like [...]
Openness. To live a big, grand and exciting life I think requires openness. Being open to change, being open to positive messages from the universe, being open to all possibilities. How can we live the full life we are meant to if we are grasping onto ideas of the way things “should” be? If we [...]
While I appreciate the sentiment of “The World has Changed” I think it’s important for us to remember change happens all the time. We make all things new. You and I are changing this world at every moment. Yes it’s great and grand Barack Obama is now President of the United States but let us [...]
This week someone I really loved and cared about died. What it really highlights for me is nothing is permanent, nothing is stable.At this moment I feel extremely unsettled, like God reached down and shook up my snow globe, which is perhaps a good thing.Recognizing nothing is permanent, nothing is secure, really forces me to [...]
I know I already wrote a post about this but since it’s coming up for me again I decided to revisit it.Lately I’m finding it hard to trust in God/the Universe/My Creator. Lately I find it hard to trust in an amorphous thing I can’t put my finger on. I find it hard to trust [...]
