About a year ago I wrote a post called â€œPublic Declaration of Trustâ€ in which I declared my commitment to trusting my higher power/the universe/etc. This week I realized Iâ€™ve done a great job of doing that, of listening to my inner voice, of acting on intuition, and being in touch with a power greater than myself. What I havenâ€™t done is trust myself.
Let me explain. On Thursday, I went to the Conscious Network Meeting in Berkeley and felt nervous because I had never been to the meetingâ€™s building before. â€œWhat if I get lost? What if I canâ€™t find it?â€ First of all, I looked at a map before I left and also even if I did get lost, I could always ask for directions. I found the building because, well, I looked at the map and I paid attention to the landmarks. However, that little bit of anxiety reminded me that I discount myself and my abilities. I donâ€™t trust that Iâ€™ll be able to handle whatever life throws at me. I worry about the future and what-ifs because a little part doesnâ€™t believe I can rely on myself.
Because the universe always communicates with me, what did we talk about at the Conscious Network Meeting? Self-trust! Ah life, showing me the funny side. During the meeting I made a commitment to the members (and to me) that I would trust myself more â€“ this blog is an extension of that.
If I donâ€™t trust myself, there is no way I can show up for life fully because instead I get plagued by fear, doubt, and worry. I spend most of the time (figuratively) chewing my fingernails instead of feeling at ease and at peace. I want to feel more rock solid in myself, to remember I donâ€™t need to know the future, I donâ€™t have to have everything figured out because I have all the tools I need to take care of myself. I am a smart, capable, resourceful, communicative woman. I may not have the answer to everything but I have the intelligence to work it out and that is something I can rely on.
Itâ€™s important for all of us to believe in ourselves, to remember weâ€™re capable of great things. To acknowledge weâ€™ve been fine in the past and weâ€™ll be fine in the future. Itâ€™s only in believing and trusting ourselves that we can accomplish what we came to this world to accomplish. Itâ€™s only by believing, â€œYes, I can do ______,â€ that it will get done. First and foremost, it means believing in ourselves.
I dream of a world where we trust ourselves. A world where we trust our capabilities. A world where we realize the future doesnâ€™t need to be mapped out because weâ€™re intelligent people who can handle whatever life throws at us. A world where we feel at ease because we know all is well in our world.
Another world is not only possible, itâ€™s probable.