The alternative title to this post could be, â€œResistance to change.â€ Iâ€™m at a place right now where Iâ€™m happy where I am. Really, really happy. I wake up in the morning feeling rested and well. I accomplish what I want to accomplish and Iâ€™m still getting paid. (Thank you severance package!) Iâ€™m pleased with the progress Iâ€™ve made on my personal growth and I donâ€™t particularly want to go any further, thanks. You know why? Because I donâ€™t want it to be hard. I donâ€™t want to break down anymore of my psychological barriers or plow ahead. I want to languish where I am because where I am is so good! (Who says it wonâ€™t get even better?)
Iâ€™m basing my resistance to change on past experience Iâ€™ve had of breaking down my barriers. Itâ€™s been challenging and full of hard work and determination. And I just donâ€™t to go through that again. I donâ€™t want to look at all my issues or face any more psychological patterns. Iâ€™ve had enough! Iâ€™ve gone far enough! Unfortunately for my ego, I havenâ€™t gone far enough. I cannot stand still. Life is about movement. You either progress or you regress, thatâ€™s just the nature of the world.
Iâ€™m resistant to change probably because Iâ€™m afraid of what it might be like. Of all the hardship I might go through. Of the struggle thatâ€™s possible. Itâ€™s like looking at a mountain and thinking, â€œDo I really have to climb up that thing to see the view at the top? Isnâ€™t there an easier, softer way?â€ No. Thereâ€™s not. I would LOVE to find the easier, softer way. I would LOVE to engage in a quick fix to get what I want. None of this hard work business. None of this climbing up the mountain. Sadly, itâ€™s not possible. As Iâ€™ve heard time and again, the easiest way out is through.
Iâ€™m reminded of something a friend said to me about growth and change, â€œWho said it has to be hard?â€ (I donâ€™t know, the world?) Is that really true though? Do I have to brace myself for hardship? Instead of a storm maybe Iâ€™ll experience a drizzle.
I read a post recently on Love-olution about how sometimes people use the phrase, â€œIâ€™m only human,â€ as a get-out-of-jail-free card, as a way of not being accountable or making forward progress. The blogger asked what would happen if we didnâ€™t accept we are â€œmerely human?â€ If we lived up to our potential as divine beings? I think she poses a great question because according to my beliefs thatâ€™s exactly what weâ€™re here for. Weâ€™re here to move beyond limitation and lack and to embrace our divine nature. Weâ€™re here to merge with Parama Parusa, Source energy or whatever label you want to give it. Weâ€™re on this Earth precisely to learn we are not â€œmerely human,â€ and thus I cannot stay where I am, metaphorically speaking. I have to keep going.
I will say though Iâ€™d rather feel excited about the change in me. Iâ€™d rather look forward to the growth ahead instead of feeling trepidation about how difficult I perceive it will be. Because who said it will be hard? Maybe it will just be. Maybe I can breakdown my walls and just accept the experience rather than qualifying the process as difficult, challenging or tough. Maybe like all things, it is what it is.
I cannot change the fact I will either evolve or devolve but I can change my perception. Instead of bracing myself for hardship I want to welcome change with open arms. I want to say, â€œYippee! Life just gets better and better! With every passing day I move closer to an infinite loving consciousness!â€ Instead of responding, â€œOy vey, thereâ€™s still so much further for me to go,â€ Iâ€™d like to say, â€œSweet! Thereâ€™s so much left for me to experience!â€ because there is. There really is.
I dream of a world where we understand the point of power is in our mind. A world where we understand we can change how we perceive growth. A world where we dismantle our fears and our outdated thinking little by little. A world where we experience joy along the path of progress. A world where we embrace change, recognizing change is not scary, we just think it is. I dream of a world where we look forward to whatâ€™s ahead knowing all is well in our world.
Another world is not only possible, itâ€™s probable.